Everything i believed in has turned out to be false.
Without meaning to, something rolled down the cheek.
What does all these mean.
Point me the way out of this maze.
I am making my own way towards the brand new year.Keeping my fingers crossed.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
iloveRambling
They always say that the one who know you the most is yourself.
I am starting to doubt about that.
Sometimes, I really don't know who I am.
The mind is full of contradictions, which i am not sure where they actually come from.
Havin' no idea about right or wrong, yes or no, true or false.
When you're mean to face the true feeling, yet the fact tells you this is not a right thing to do.
Isn't hypocrite?
I hate this.
Right means false?
True is wrong?
Yes and no are equivalence?
Was totally puzzled with all these.
And what if i say that I can't even tell how i feel.
So what.
Whatever it is.
Now that so much had happen, i don't know how much courage is needed to confront reality.
Maybe i just need to have a little more faith.
A little more will do =)
I am starting to doubt about that.
Sometimes, I really don't know who I am.
The mind is full of contradictions, which i am not sure where they actually come from.
Havin' no idea about right or wrong, yes or no, true or false.
When you're mean to face the true feeling, yet the fact tells you this is not a right thing to do.
Isn't hypocrite?
I hate this.
Right means false?
True is wrong?
Yes and no are equivalence?
Was totally puzzled with all these.
And what if i say that I can't even tell how i feel.
So what.
Whatever it is.
Now that so much had happen, i don't know how much courage is needed to confront reality.
Maybe i just need to have a little more faith.
A little more will do =)
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Back !
Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away.
Pain is inevitable. And it will be the hardest lesson to learn.
The irresistible sweetness in the air.
The lemon tastes sweet or sour. You say it.
Song expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.
Pain is inevitable. And it will be the hardest lesson to learn.
The irresistible sweetness in the air.
The lemon tastes sweet or sour. You say it.
Song expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.
Im seriouslyy homesick right now.
I want to hear daddy nags beside me.
I want mummy to accompany me to watch drama.
I want to argue non stop with SimViVien.
I want SimJeHan to kacau me whenever im sitting in front of the lappie.
Dear god, would you grant my wish tonight? In my dream maybe?
Despite all the crappy,hm serious one.
TA-DAA! Specially dedicated to mydear roomie, Miss Tan Sook Fong.
With her favourite HoneyDew SaiMaiLou.
21st Celebration. My masterpiece*winks*
Girl, thanks for being here for me whenever i need someone to count on. You know exactly how i feel, and this means a lot to me.
Once again,wishing you happy sweet 21st ! LOveSs****
I want to hear daddy nags beside me.
I want mummy to accompany me to watch drama.
I want to argue non stop with SimViVien.
I want SimJeHan to kacau me whenever im sitting in front of the lappie.
Dear god, would you grant my wish tonight? In my dream maybe?
Despite all the crappy,hm serious one.
TA-DAA! Specially dedicated to mydear roomie, Miss Tan Sook Fong.
HappyBirthday to you!
With her favourite HoneyDew SaiMaiLou.
21st Celebration. My masterpiece*winks*
Girl, thanks for being here for me whenever i need someone to count on. You know exactly how i feel, and this means a lot to me.Once again,wishing you happy sweet 21st ! LOveSs****
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Stacking upp!
06/09/09
Just done with the nutrition night yesterday night. Was totally exhausted. Slept till 11am something today. Indeed tiring but everything's worth when i can feel the warmth around. Perhaps should be thinking in another way round? Think positive,basically,it's a good thing as i wouldn't have any extra time to sit down and think about other nonsense stuffs =) Photos will be up soon.
I missed out Daddy's birthday this year, again. Saddd. Hm sorry daddy. Thanks for everything. Thou im not an obedient daughter still iknow you sayang me alot. I always claimed that i have many genes inherited from you,particularly those bad bad one haha =X. Well it's quite true as we are both
1) bit bull-headed
2) care a lot but pretend as if we dont care
3) not really good in mood management stuffs =p
Yea these are part of them. We can be similar in many sense rightt. Proud to have you in my life. So,
Happy birthday to my dearest daddy!!! Iloveyou.
Just done with the nutrition night yesterday night. Was totally exhausted. Slept till 11am something today. Indeed tiring but everything's worth when i can feel the warmth around. Perhaps should be thinking in another way round? Think positive,basically,it's a good thing as i wouldn't have any extra time to sit down and think about other nonsense stuffs =) Photos will be up soon.
I missed out Daddy's birthday this year, again. Saddd. Hm sorry daddy. Thanks for everything. Thou im not an obedient daughter still iknow you sayang me alot. I always claimed that i have many genes inherited from you,particularly those bad bad one haha =X. Well it's quite true as we are both
1) bit bull-headed
2) care a lot but pretend as if we dont care
3) not really good in mood management stuffs =p
Yea these are part of them. We can be similar in many sense rightt. Proud to have you in my life. So,
Happy birthday to my dearest daddy!!! Iloveyou.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Weekend♥ Updates
Okay i know. Weekend is like yea,ages ago haha. Sad to say that life after exam is even busier than the exam week, indeed lotssS more hectic weh. I haven't really sit on the study desk since the Microb's test ended last Friday. God knows how much i wish that i could have more time to pamper myself. I just want to sleep longer, as simply as that. I haven't got enough sleep yet =(
Saturday
Woke up early in the morning for breakfast and some grocery shopping. We embarked the journey to Broga Hill at 12pm sharp. We were assigned to do some sort of research on those indigenous group in Broga Hill.
Pajero fetching us to the destination.
Hit the journey.
Filled with limitless OHM !
Excitation.
Finally.
Unluckily, it was a rainy day. The rain was pelting down like bullets, beat us mercilessly. Still, we have to walk in the wet and travel from one residence to another one.
I was supposed to wrap myself in the deep slumber. The weather was just nice for me to be in the slumber land. Definitely NOT an ideal day for us to carry out the research thingy.
Muddy shoes. Thanks to the spattering rain.
After rain comes the sunshine. That's really better. Mild weather.Warm ray. Gentle breeze. Scent the air?
Oh ya maybe someday we should conquer that hill =)
Stepping in and dealing face to face to the indigenous people provides me a glimpse of the beautiful but hidden part of our society. Yes, we do. Easily forgotten about the existence of those minorities,a group of people who can be considered more indigenous than the Malays.
A meaningful quote saying:
"We are not the brightest crayon in the box but we hope to bridge hidden communities with urbanites."
Saturday Night and Sunday
Ryl bought this in penang. Mini Jerami. It's CUTE right? Portable as well.
Of course, we have to use fingers to play. Too tiny weh. But it seems to become larger after playing for some time. Weird thing.
Cutiee Ryl.Trust me, she has the innocence of a child.
Here comes the loser of the night. Not to mention that anymore, it was a sad case. I am always that unlucky. Kind of pissed off. Almost every round, i lose i LOSE. Lose doesn't implied that i am not skillful, right right? Just ignore this haha.
We love squeeeezinggg together =D
Ryl.Lui.I
Well,we actually talked talked talked till everyone dozed off. The next morning, we woke up earlier to have brunch together. And, we managed to meet up Heng in MV, catched a movie then.
Being with them is never bored, i really really feel comfortable. Thou i don't speak a lot, and basically im just too poor in expressing myself as well,but hm tht's me. Just me. Because friend is someone with whom you dare to be yourself.
Hmmm me likey the bonding session with them =))
Saturday
Woke up early in the morning for breakfast and some grocery shopping. We embarked the journey to Broga Hill at 12pm sharp. We were assigned to do some sort of research on those indigenous group in Broga Hill.
Pajero fetching us to the destination.
Hit the journey.
Filled with limitless OHM !
Excitation.
Finally.
Unluckily, it was a rainy day. The rain was pelting down like bullets, beat us mercilessly. Still, we have to walk in the wet and travel from one residence to another one.
I was supposed to wrap myself in the deep slumber. The weather was just nice for me to be in the slumber land. Definitely NOT an ideal day for us to carry out the research thingy.
Muddy shoes. Thanks to the spattering rain.
After rain comes the sunshine. That's really better. Mild weather.Warm ray. Gentle breeze. Scent the air?
Oh ya maybe someday we should conquer that hill =)
Stepping in and dealing face to face to the indigenous people provides me a glimpse of the beautiful but hidden part of our society. Yes, we do. Easily forgotten about the existence of those minorities,a group of people who can be considered more indigenous than the Malays.
A meaningful quote saying:
"We are not the brightest crayon in the box but we hope to bridge hidden communities with urbanites."
Saturday Night and Sunday
Right after that, went to Damansara meeting up loveliessss. Awww, i miss them badly. We have no chance to meet up for quite a longg time. Lui picked me up at Kelana station then we headed for dinner. Haha Y.E.A.H, as usual, we exchanged good and evil tidings ! **grinsS**
Later on, next station was Cheryl's house. Favourite place to over night and had pillow talk. SweeEEt.
We spent the whole night playin this. J.E.R.A.M.I !!!
Ryl bought this in penang. Mini Jerami. It's CUTE right? Portable as well.
Of course, we have to use fingers to play. Too tiny weh. But it seems to become larger after playing for some time. Weird thing.
Cutiee Ryl.Trust me, she has the innocence of a child.
Here comes the loser of the night. Not to mention that anymore, it was a sad case. I am always that unlucky. Kind of pissed off. Almost every round, i lose i LOSE. Lose doesn't implied that i am not skillful, right right? Just ignore this haha.
We love squeeeezinggg together =D
Ryl.Lui.I
Well,we actually talked talked talked till everyone dozed off. The next morning, we woke up earlier to have brunch together. And, we managed to meet up Heng in MV, catched a movie then.
Being with them is never bored, i really really feel comfortable. Thou i don't speak a lot, and basically im just too poor in expressing myself as well,but hm tht's me. Just me. Because friend is someone with whom you dare to be yourself.
Hmmm me likey the bonding session with them =))
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Pheww,2 subjects were officially down!!And 1 more to go on this Friday..and yes yes im looking forward eargrlyy.
Right after 10pm dis friday,i gonna turn study mode OFF !Doubtless,switch it to da shopping mode straight away,that's what i will do =)
Hmm all i can say is that exam drives ppl nuts.Somehow exams never failed to make me rather haggard and sluggish like a SO-PO.. especially the damn shitty statistics!!
All the phobia feelings towards maths,numerical stuffs came to me,like AGAIN! I was wondering wth that caused my sweaty hand shivering throughout the whole exam period in da hall.That kind of feeling sux to da max.It was exactly what i felt last two years, I have never expect this to take place again. This feeling will only diffuse in whenever i am facing FIGURES.
I just found it hard to analyze and interpret da question with some logical thinking. Heart beats and clock striking rhyme made da condition even worse. The optional answers given were not compatible with my final answer, nerve-racking! That's why i really hate maths banyak-banyakkk. I can never do it calmly.
By the way i had already accepted this fact.Undeniable one haha.
Okies. Last week, we were taken to somewhere in SS15 to visit the Federation of Family Planning Association (FFPAM). FYI, this visit is one of the field work for the subject,Maternal and Child Health. It is mainly about women's issues like pregnancy, contraceptive,HIV,reproductive health and bla bla. That's why it requires us to visit the federation's place for in depth information about the provision of health services. Needless to say,it was an academic visit,so we had to listen to a talk.@@
And here comes the most HAPPENING part, the demonstrator showed us the proper ways to use a CONDOM. Well, he actually explained that steps by steps weh. Everyone seems to be kinda excited as he came out with one artificial TUT-TUT and an expired condom, trying hard to do a detailed explanation.
Click to enlarge.Maybe you can figure out something.**18SX**
Frankly, I have never know that there are actually some steps and precautions that we need to take note,until he made all da explaination. I was like, OoO i SEeee, har now only i know it aint that simple like what i thought before that.
After that, he called upon someone among us to repeat the demonstration. SWT. God must be kind enough to bless me for not being asked to do the demo. Or else, hm cant even imagine that.Please lah, must be EXTREMELY nervous as everyone is going to stare at you. All you have to do is put that on, at the same time say it out loudly every single step that you're doing. No way for me !
The "lucky" girl. She was chosen to do da demo in front of the crowd.
Believe it or not. She was shivering when putting that on. Nervous huh.
Besides that, they passed around some actual devices used for contraception purposes.
Contraceptives Pill which is 99% effective method for contraception.
Intra Uterine Device.
After all, still, it was a fruitful visit. It is true that we have learned a lot from the talk and demo part. Hmm anyway, I think we should envisage this type of education, perhaps more approaches should be taken in order to spread around the correct info to everyone, especially teens =))
Signing off. Piles of notes are waiting for me. Bless me =p
Right after 10pm dis friday,i gonna turn study mode OFF !Doubtless,switch it to da shopping mode straight away,that's what i will do =)
Hmm all i can say is that exam drives ppl nuts.Somehow exams never failed to make me rather haggard and sluggish like a SO-PO.. especially the damn shitty statistics!!
All the phobia feelings towards maths,numerical stuffs came to me,like AGAIN! I was wondering wth that caused my sweaty hand shivering throughout the whole exam period in da hall.That kind of feeling sux to da max.It was exactly what i felt last two years, I have never expect this to take place again. This feeling will only diffuse in whenever i am facing FIGURES.
I just found it hard to analyze and interpret da question with some logical thinking. Heart beats and clock striking rhyme made da condition even worse. The optional answers given were not compatible with my final answer, nerve-racking! That's why i really hate maths banyak-banyakkk. I can never do it calmly.
By the way i had already accepted this fact.Undeniable one haha.
Okies. Last week, we were taken to somewhere in SS15 to visit the Federation of Family Planning Association (FFPAM). FYI, this visit is one of the field work for the subject,Maternal and Child Health. It is mainly about women's issues like pregnancy, contraceptive,HIV,reproductive health and bla bla. That's why it requires us to visit the federation's place for in depth information about the provision of health services. Needless to say,it was an academic visit,so we had to listen to a talk.@@
And here comes the most HAPPENING part, the demonstrator showed us the proper ways to use a CONDOM. Well, he actually explained that steps by steps weh. Everyone seems to be kinda excited as he came out with one artificial TUT-TUT and an expired condom, trying hard to do a detailed explanation.
Click to enlarge.Maybe you can figure out something.**18SX**
Frankly, I have never know that there are actually some steps and precautions that we need to take note,until he made all da explaination. I was like, OoO i SEeee, har now only i know it aint that simple like what i thought before that.
After that, he called upon someone among us to repeat the demonstration. SWT. God must be kind enough to bless me for not being asked to do the demo. Or else, hm cant even imagine that.Please lah, must be EXTREMELY nervous as everyone is going to stare at you. All you have to do is put that on, at the same time say it out loudly every single step that you're doing. No way for me !
The "lucky" girl. She was chosen to do da demo in front of the crowd.
Believe it or not. She was shivering when putting that on. Nervous huh.Besides that, they passed around some actual devices used for contraception purposes.
Contraceptives Pill which is 99% effective method for contraception.
Intra Uterine Device.After all, still, it was a fruitful visit. It is true that we have learned a lot from the talk and demo part. Hmm anyway, I think we should envisage this type of education, perhaps more approaches should be taken in order to spread around the correct info to everyone, especially teens =))
Signing off. Piles of notes are waiting for me. Bless me =p
Friday, July 31, 2009
A very sudden break
Due to the pandemic outbreak of H1N1, UPM declared that we will be having 1 week holiday starting from 29th.
Trust me, this is not a good news haha.
When we first knew about this shocking news, we were like WAT?? Frankly, i just couldnt believe that because it was way too sudden. I just read about the article written in the newspaper clarifying about there's no any cases in this Uni. How could that be right. It was quite impossible. I was praying hard no to have holiday at this kind of moment.
I entered the lecture hall late, settled down and continue wondering about this stupid news. After a while, i saw people started to mutter around, some even walked out the hall, talking on the phone and bla bla bla. They even started to buy ticket going back that night. WOW. High efficiency i can say. People like me bothers not much about that, i hate being so rush.
The amazing part is that the lecturer was still being so calm, kept on explaining about the what what what techniques of microb. He didn't realize that the class was kind of kecoh because his eyes were on the PC's screen only. No eyes contact at all, that's why. Until someone raised their hand and voiced out. I still remembered the last line he said. We will stop here and go back to celebrate for H1N1. Swtttt. CELEBRATION huh?
I bet that no one actually feel good with this unexpected holiday. It upsets all the plans and progress of everything, yes everything i mean.
Let's see.
1) The uni authorities bring forward the mid august holidays.GEEZZ.For those whom already booked for the flight ticket back during mid semester break. I am one of them weh. Guess what i ve just booked that one day earlier before the announcement been made.Ishh.
2)The faculty night need to be postponed. I can see that the committees were putting much of efforts in preparation during the week and they were looking forward to make it a success on this Friday. But now everything messed up. Thou i am not going to attend this, but ill support you guys morally, everything ll be fine =))
3)My plan to watch the La Musique concert on Thurs ruined.
4)I 've just decided to start my preparation for the next week test. It's hard to make such a determined decision weh. But the holidays spoilt my mood, seriously. Like now, i am back to the holiday mood, like again! DUH..
5) And most importantly, it BOILED my phuket's trip indirectly!!! Night before this, we were still discussing, planning on the trip, full of enthusiasm. H1n1 is one of the factor that make others hesitate to travel around. But not me haha.
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Kies. Enough to say about those. Expectantly, everyone rushed back to their room and started to pack their stuffs, locked their luggage and all those. And yes, expectantly, SuFang , HuiMin and I came out with a SUDDEN plan as well. We planned to stay one more day while people was escaping from the city. We ended up eating sumptuous dinner in MV. And, of course have fun =) I am glad that they were calm.
Chilis. I love the place.
Huimin-the landlady <3
Waiting for me to set the camera as usual.
Deariess.
SuFang- wise thinker <3
Out of the mess in the suffocated city, still we managed to make ourselves feel contented and blissful with yummy food and laughter. It's more than enough. Because even without fancy dresses, without admirable vehicles, without perfect bf, without happening life, we do smile even wider than anyone else. The true happiness, we cant see it but we can feel it, deep inside.
Trust me, this is not a good news haha.
When we first knew about this shocking news, we were like WAT?? Frankly, i just couldnt believe that because it was way too sudden. I just read about the article written in the newspaper clarifying about there's no any cases in this Uni. How could that be right. It was quite impossible. I was praying hard no to have holiday at this kind of moment.
I entered the lecture hall late, settled down and continue wondering about this stupid news. After a while, i saw people started to mutter around, some even walked out the hall, talking on the phone and bla bla bla. They even started to buy ticket going back that night. WOW. High efficiency i can say. People like me bothers not much about that, i hate being so rush.
The amazing part is that the lecturer was still being so calm, kept on explaining about the what what what techniques of microb. He didn't realize that the class was kind of kecoh because his eyes were on the PC's screen only. No eyes contact at all, that's why. Until someone raised their hand and voiced out. I still remembered the last line he said. We will stop here and go back to celebrate for H1N1. Swtttt. CELEBRATION huh?
I bet that no one actually feel good with this unexpected holiday. It upsets all the plans and progress of everything, yes everything i mean.
Let's see.
1) The uni authorities bring forward the mid august holidays.GEEZZ.For those whom already booked for the flight ticket back during mid semester break. I am one of them weh. Guess what i ve just booked that one day earlier before the announcement been made.Ishh.
2)The faculty night need to be postponed. I can see that the committees were putting much of efforts in preparation during the week and they were looking forward to make it a success on this Friday. But now everything messed up. Thou i am not going to attend this, but ill support you guys morally, everything ll be fine =))
3)My plan to watch the La Musique concert on Thurs ruined.
4)I 've just decided to start my preparation for the next week test. It's hard to make such a determined decision weh. But the holidays spoilt my mood, seriously. Like now, i am back to the holiday mood, like again! DUH..
5) And most importantly, it BOILED my phuket's trip indirectly!!! Night before this, we were still discussing, planning on the trip, full of enthusiasm. H1n1 is one of the factor that make others hesitate to travel around. But not me haha.
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Kies. Enough to say about those. Expectantly, everyone rushed back to their room and started to pack their stuffs, locked their luggage and all those. And yes, expectantly, SuFang , HuiMin and I came out with a SUDDEN plan as well. We planned to stay one more day while people was escaping from the city. We ended up eating sumptuous dinner in MV. And, of course have fun =) I am glad that they were calm.
Chilis. I love the place.
Huimin-the landlady <3
Waiting for me to set the camera as usual.
Deariess.
SuFang- wise thinker <3
Out of the mess in the suffocated city, still we managed to make ourselves feel contented and blissful with yummy food and laughter. It's more than enough. Because even without fancy dresses, without admirable vehicles, without perfect bf, without happening life, we do smile even wider than anyone else. The true happiness, we cant see it but we can feel it, deep inside.
"The rays of happiness, like those of light, are colorless when unbroken."
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Embrace the F =)
Sometimes i didn't saw it coming, it just popped out of somewhere else.
Words doesn't seems to ease the feeling.
Songs lost its ability to appease the ache.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
God plays funny games.
Fate leads us to where we're supposed to be.
It's absurd sometimes, though.
Be appreciative, i always bear this in my mind.
There's a cliche sounds:
Today is a gift from heaven.
That's why we called it present.
Life is all about F.
Family, Friends, and FAITH.
forgiveandforgetaswell
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